Finding the Rainbow After the Storm

The last two weeks have been crazy rough. I've thought about blogging about it and actually a few times started a post, but could never get through it. I guess sometimes when you're in a whirlwind of events simultaneously coming at you it's hard enough to just keep going, let alone try to get coherent thoughts together. I'm gonna let it flow and whatever comes, comes. Please bare with me...

Our much anticipated move to North Carolina is off for the moment. I haven't completely recuperated from that devastation, but I feel a lot more at peace about it than I did 2 weeks ago. Do you remember my mini vacation nearly two weeks ago? The hubster just about forced me to take some "me" time because he thought I was under too much stress. I am so blessed to have him.

We won't be moving right now because hubby was contacted by the company he was to transfer to and was told the position had been terminated. The company is downsizing and a lot of positions were closed. We are so grateful to God that we found this out before moving and not after we got there. Luckily, he can remain with his current employer.

The morning after hubby told me about the job situation I discovered someone had backed into my car in the parking lot. No note was left behind as to who did it, just a big dent in my trunk and a busted tail light. Why are people so inconsiderate? But, you know what, God doesn't like ugly. Two days ago (quite a few days after it happened) a man approached me when I was getting into my car and told me he witnessed the whole accident. He even showed me the vehicle that hit mine. I could see the paint transfer on the other car and it was damaged too. The man gave me his name, address and number and said that he would testify if necessary to the police about it. I've since reported it to the state with all the info and am waiting for their response. It's encouraging to know there are a few good people still out there.

That same night I called my Mother to let her know our move was off for the time being and she sounded horrible. Of course, I was very concerned because she is getting up there in age and we always worry about her health. It wasn't her health that was the concern but my eldest sister's health (my Mother's firstborn). She has been diagnosed with cancer and the prognosis isn't good. My Mother has already buried my Father, 2 daughters and now another daughter all in a spans of 13 years. It really is overwhelming her and I fear for her health as well.

Lil Man. Wow, all I can say is this lil guy is my angel. He is such a trooper, so strong and brave. I must have done one thing right to have been blessed with two wonderful boys. But Lil Man has a place in my heart so special. I wouldn't EVER play favoritism between my boys, but Lil Man has been through some hard times with me that Lil One will never experience (...and I'm so glad he won't) and this is why he holds a special place. Despite all he's been through with me, he still came away smiling.

Lil Man has a condition on his teeth that caused the enamel not to form properly. It makes many of his teeth appear as if they have been chipped or broken. When he was 3 years old his dentist recommended a procedure to correct this condition so his adult teeth wouldn't be affected. Due to the nature of the procedure and it's lengthiness the dentist would have had to administer general anesthesia on him. My eldest sister's 3rd born had the same condition. He didn't have the procedure and he didn't have any problems with his adult teeth. Therefore, I felt comfortable following her advice not to have it done. Fast forward 3 years later, Lil Man has two absesses and now it's imperative he have the procedure done. I feel terrible about it because I feel I could have prevented them had we went along with the dentist's earlier recommendation.

I've always assumed Lil Man was allergic to milk, but his pediatrican insisted it was simply a lactose intolerance. He said Lil Man didn't have fever, hives and other symptoms associated with an allergic reaction, so he recommended lactose free milk and soy milk. Lil Man refuses to drink them because they remind him of regular milk. Actually, any milk based product like yogurt, ice cream, cheese, sour cream etc he avoids like the plague and I've never forced him seeing how it causes him to throw up.

After Lil One was born I decided to attempt to have him seen by a Pediatrican that is highly sought in our area. It's very difficult to get in with this doctor, but we were fortunate enough to. Once in, we immediately sought to switch Lil Man to this doctor as well. He prescribe some blood tests on Lil Man and confirmed he is allergic to milk. He said to stop giving him milk based products immediately and has referred Lil Man to a specialist as he feels he may have other allergies unrelated to lactose. The Pediatrican wants to rule out sleep apnea since Lil Man snores something awful. However, he's almost certain he does from the results of some tests. If sleep apnea is confirmed more than likely Lil Man will have to have an operation.

Lastly, Lil Man's cholestrol level is way over and above what it should be. I just feel like crap about that. I think I put a pretty good diet together for my family. There are some days the meals are more balanced than others. You won't see candy in our home because of Lil Man's teeth issues. On weekends, we tend to wing it and eat quick fix meals, but we never eat t.v. dinners. Occasionally, for our quick fix meals we'll have the precooked frozen hot wings with fries. Maybe a couple times a month I'll let Lil Man eat a Chefboyardee meal. We really don't eat out much or order in. So it's killing me wondering what I've done wrong. I've never had a cholestrol problem. Lil Man's paternal side has a lot of problems with it, along with high blood pressure and diabetes. I spoke to his father about it and he said he would also watch Lil Man's diet, but I have no control on that end. It's just heartbreaking for me that he's only 6 and already has a cholestrol problem.

I realize now my strive for an organic life for my family is all the more necessary. My family needs this. If you've made it to the end of this very long post...Bless your heart. God is good, even in the trials He is still good.